Hmmm...

Since no one's ever really going to read this, it's nice to have a place to put the random shit that floats in and out of my head. Not quite thoughts, not quite ideas...just stuff.

I realize lately that I'm self-sabotaging myself. There are a number of things that I have to do. That I really should do, but just can't quite bring myself to do. Chief among them is finding a job. Ugh. Employment. Gainful employment. It's been a while. As a law student, it was nice to take a break from the working world, but I grew to miss it. Now the thought of the 9-5 grind seems really unappealing except for those pesky bills I need to pay. And how those are piling up. I wonder if I can pay a credit card bill with another credit card? How long can I make $150 last? That's like 150 boxes of mac n' cheese. Wow. But then I'd have to buy milk and margarine so maybe it's worth like 120 boxes of cooked mac 'n cheese. Still a value if you ask me.

Other things are going better. Love life has finally appeared. It's been dormant for the last, oh, 23 years. Love life is, of course, separate from sex life. That hasn't been dormant for years. I wonder what that says about me? So there's a boy. Who I like. Who seems to like me. Who calls. When he says he will?!?! I know. It's unheard of. This is all tentatively going well. It's only been 6 weeks and 9 dates. There's still plenty of time for it to go horribly horribly wrong.